15 décembre 2008

Stillness

Do you often feel like you’ve missed something your whole life?
Do you feel regrets toward things that you haven’t accomplished?
Do you feel like you should not be in the situation you’re in right now?
Do you even remember what it was like to be happy, living a simple life?
I just want to know..
I am just tired
So tired
Of constantly waiting
After something
Something better
Stuck.. in the middle of two contradictions
Two hard-felt emotions, like black and white
Sucking what’s left of my vital energy
Little by little
Consuming me
Desecrating that part of me
That little part
That had hopes
Big hopes
Now I feel soulless, pointless..
Why am I here?
Why does I feel.. these things?
Ugly things creeping inside me
Like snakes of negativity
I am an unbeliever
If so, a nonexistant being
I believe in nothing
But myself and fate
I can be my only guardian
My only saviour, is myself
Not some faceless stranger
Who comes from nowhere
And pretends to know me
Here I am
Waiting
For the answer
To come…